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What Love Is?

“Love represents a range of emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.] The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction. This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

As an abstract concept love usually refers to a strong, ineffable feeling towards another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings, from the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual. Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts.”

– Wikipedia on “What is Love”

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Love; one of the things I Google-d this morning. Funny? Well, I’m trying to know what Love is in the Internet. Guess somehow I lost it along the way. No, no, no. I haven’t lost the feeling of how to Love; I know I can still love someone. I know I could be unconditionally loyal with someone I love. This month, my emotions seem to stirs up pretty madly. Too many things popping in my head; reminiscing my sweet past lover, the people I had love and where I stand. This month is about breaking myself free from everything, trying to move on, and learning to let go.

Amie’s perception of me; somewhat changed. How he looked at me – he finally said to me; he thought of me as a little sister that he never had. Yes, I’m in love with my bestie. And a lot of you readers out there have experience the same feeling too. But I love him way before he was my bestie. Which I couldn’t make it happen somehow, so yes, I settled as being the “here for you” figure. We grew closer, which I’m really thankful of. And he was there for me too. We share almost everything, stories of life, men and women; I am happy with him. But yeah, ME as HIS LIL SISTER? A bit cliché *ROFL* But I’m trying to learn and accept that now… All I want him to know is that I would never want to lose him ever. Right now he’s with someone… Someone that even me and the Night Team seems to like… Somebody needs a dog leash now… He’s been kinda tied up…

Azmir on the other hand, eventually we came across the stage where I finally draw the line between us. A line from a lover to a friend, friends with benefit (LALALA), and last week, we had this long conversation over the phone. We decided to just being friends. Eventually he and Nina (this very nice girl she knew and met last couple of months), their relationship begin to grew a tad closer? Well, Nina! You need to start to make a move, coz he won’t! *LOL* sorry darling, I’m trying to be supportive here :P Been almost two years now we broke up. And who could not love him…? He’s the best boyfriend I ever had in my entire life. Full of sensitiveness, sarcasms, romantic, cuddly, always there for me (at least over the phone – coz he’s in UK), and ALL FREAKING MOMS LOVES HIM! Ahaha! I love you, but this is for the better, right? And as you pray for my happiness, I’m praying the same too here :)

Same old Matthew baby doesn’t change *LOL* But it seems that we both kinda in the stage where we don’t chat as always, both are too busy attending our real boring life instead of stuck in front of the flat panel monitor, laughing our ass off. Things like this happens, eventually. Sooner, or later. But we still contacting each other, thru emails or notes in DeviantArt. Miss you heaps, though…

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Ramadhan seems to be ok up till now. I’m getting a bit thinner due to the fever I got for a few days. Hence, I haven’t eaten rice for a week. Now, when I’m trying to eat rice again, it felt different. I don’t feel like eating it much as hell. Azlan been promoted to a bigger division :) Congrats, darl :D He’s been good to me, FYI. Well, of course there are times which I feel a little lonely, sad here and there… But all and all, I am HAPPY :) He’s a good friend, and been helping me to get thru with some of my personal problems. He’s been feeding me well too *LOL* Of course I mean FOOD! Tsk tsk tsk, dirty-minded you guys lah!

Eh, somehow I don’t really feel writing anything right now… Just wanna listen to the music and chill. About the LOVE thingy, I think I’ll save it for future… Happy fasting by the way!

Later, darlings!


  1. You finally updated! (FINALLY!).

    Neways, I'm sorry to hear that he only sees you as his little sister. But you are right, that is not a reason for you to stop CARING for him. A friend can care for each other, nothing's wrong with that..only to refrain yourself with "excessive" care though; not to be misunderstood by his girl. hehe.

    But you should accept that though, because it'd eat you from inside if you keep on hoping. Kan you have choices of men, pick one jee haha!

    Well whatever your decision is, good luck!

  2. LOL! i dont mind being there for him :) love him too much to even loose him at all :)

    but still, few girls that he brings to meet me does kinda eat my heart inside.. seeing him treating those women and wondering why cant i get the same thing.. ROFL..

    all and all, i think my relationship with him like this is better too.. there's no reason for us to stop talking or have a "couple's argument" that would lead to breakups..

    tapi... tapi... aku kurang kaseh sayang.. hahahahahaha!!!!

    elelee.. choices of men, macam ko penah jumpe aku je nk buat statement tue.. lalala~ sure ke sume laki yg aku ada tue nk aku bcoz of myself :)

    questions questions...

  3. Pendita11:24 am

    Love one another, but make not a bond of love
    Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.

    Fill each other's cup, but drink not from one cup.
    Give one another of your bread, but eat not from the same loaf.

    Sing and dance together and be joyous,
    but let each one of you be alone,
    Even as the strings of a lute are alone
    though they quiver with the same music.

    Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping;
    For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.

    And stand together yet not too near together;
    For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
    And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

    Poem by Khalil Gibran

  4. such a nice poem dear :)
    thanks for sharing :D