Flying, Soaring – Away!
"Do you know what it feels like loving someone
that's in a rush to throw you away?"
Out from that new catchy song from Enrique, Do You Know – there’s a pain struck down upon me when I realise the lyrics in it. Yes, I do know what it feels like. Few times eventually. And yet again, here I am still. I know I haven’t be writing for a few days. Even when I got the time during my weekends. Just been doing some thinking. A deep one, to be specific.
Silly little heart of mine wanting to stay and wait for a spark of miracle to happen. But, wait no longer; I supposed. I have decided to move on. How later in life I might be more sad, I know I have made a right decision. I rather to hurt myself alone than having the cause of hurting because of someone else. So, lovely heart of mine, do remember this; because I won’t say it again… “Heart, did I told you before to stop wishing upon the stars? They are dying, for god’s sake!” LOL!
At this very moment, 11:54am, a message been sent to Riq. Wrote, “Sayang, I’m going.” I feel a lighter me deep inside. Am I content with my choice? Perhaps. Wow, 11:56am he replied, “Ok.” Bella, are you crying? No, just speechless. Ha-ha. No goodbyes, thank yous or anything. Now I have the feeling of hateful. A hateful feeling for him… Am I what I think I am? Owh, you don’t have to know what I’m thinking right now. Just be happy for the choice I have made. And I know I am right, this time!
Owh, how I wish I could say the things Iris said to Jesper! Which goes like this… Ha-ha! And yes, I am making an effort to write this down.
“Shush. You broke my heart. And you acted like somehow it was my fault,
my misunderstanding, and I was too in love with you to ever be mad at you,
so I just punished myself!”
“Somehow newly entitles me to say, it's over.
This - This twisted, toxic THING between us is finally finished!
I'm miraculously done being in love with you! Ha! I've got a life to start living.”
Let’s fly away! Soaring between those fluffy white clouds… Hoping to be miraculously happy without having to kill those stars by wishing upon them!
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we can always think that he is the jerk,the ungrateful selfish man that we wish we would nvr have known or any of that kind..
ReplyDeletebut dear bella..
i think it's wise to leave someone who doesn't appreciate u as much..
even more when he nvr says thank you to you..
don't be mean to urself.u can be mean to others,well in some circumstance, but nvr to urself.remember that.
u deserve to be happy.
really.
btw thats a comment from me.idy.xoxo.
ReplyDeleteowh.. idy :)
ReplyDeletethankies.. yeah kinda lonely this way, but its for d best of my own self.. sayang she!
I love the movie - The Holiday, Jasper is such a prick!
ReplyDeleteI'm always online on yahoo, just buzz me whenever you feel lonely okay? PLUS I have a new cam that I'm so dying to show off to you :P
lolz..
And please add me back on myspace!!
aku nih tak reti sgt ngan english ni. tapi takpe.... aku komen dah le. sedap gak lagu tema kt blog kamu nih... syabas :)
ReplyDeletebudd